ChokeDee let me say first that coming and talking about this is a real good step in the right direction. Bravo for that.

That said, let me say that it sounds like a budding addiction to me... Take out of the equation that we are talking about gambling. Just look at the addictive behaviors.

1.) You think this might be a problem (usually means it is)
2.) You are no longer satisfied with the small wins. You need more and more to get the same good feeling of winning.
3.) You are affected in a negative way irl after you have done it.
4.) You don't want to let people you know irl that you may have a problem, so it is making you less than open with those near and dear to you.
5.) And I will bet this is not the first time you have thought that stopping altogether would be the best thing. But, you have not stopped even though it makes you feel awful.

Not judging you, can't say I don't have some of the same feelings and thoughts sometimes. Just saying...

katt

ChokeDee.. you're not alone,one way or another we have all been there, i've blown my money and money i wasn't supposed to several times. Theres a starting point for all of us.. and theres an ending point, if you can and this is the hard part.. say goodbye to the money you lost, don't beat yourself up over that loss.. and keep what you do have,now this is what you will feel good about, trust me all that you lost will have nothing on what you keep and walk away with... no matter what amount it is.

I know the feeling ChokeDee, I have lost quite a bit due to that type of greed. My advice is to set a sum that you think is satisfactory and then stick to it and withdraw the money when you reach that sum. Sticking to that rule will surely make you a lot happier in the long run.

Looks like you've had some greate advice ChokeDee.  Opening up as you have on a public forum, is a very brave and I have to say, sensible thing to have done.  You don't know any of us irl as you have said and the best way to share a problem is with people who don't know you.  Non-judgemental advice is worth it's weight in gold.

Fortunately for you, you actually only lost €20 (your deposit) on this occasion and it is pointless beating yourself up over not withdrawing the winnings from it.  I'm sure we have all been there and done that at some point which means you are definitely not alone.

I will make a withdrawal if I get up to 5 x my deposit, sometimes 4 times.  The way I look at it is, this gives me 4-5 more chances to deposit and win somewhere else, I would be in profit and I got my initial deposit back.

If you decide to give it up completely (which it sounds as though you are), then congratulations to you.  If you decide to continue on with gambling, then maybe set yourself a limit to the amount you will deposit in a week or month and the amount "times" your deposit you will withdraw should you win.

I wish you strength to make the right decision for you.

blue

years ago i was so far in, my husband had to get an advance from his boss to bail us out before we drowned in debt.Now i pay everything first then if anys left over i gamble (this has worked for me)gl

Rena.. exactly what you have to train yourself to do, i live here in Las Vegas, Nevada it's a fight for me as long as my bills are paid i'm fine, except sometimes i spend momey that i wanted to  buy something new with. It's extrememly hard when you live in a gambling city and also have access to online, relaxing in the comfort of your home. Working ina casino was the worst, getting your paycheck cashing it and then walking 10 paces to your favorite machine, only to discover an hour later you blew all your hard earned money, and realized.. you just worked 2 long hard weeks for free. It's a sick feeling right in the pit of your stomache, going home to face all the bills you owe, dodging phone calls,and wherever possible taking from peter to pay paul, soon peter is empty and paul is knocking on the door. Sweating it out another 2 weeks, praying this time when you get your check, you're strong enough to just walk right out the door.. I no longer work in casinos, i absolutely refuse to do it.. the only reason is i gamble, i enjoy gambling, i don't want to stop, either i win big or i go home broke.. i pay all my bills first and i do have a limit set aside for gambling (my gambling fund)  which i never break and that's what has kept me happy and stress free

Truth be known...everyone on this board is addicted to some level.  Believe me your not alone.  Gambling and especially slots is very addictive.  I swear that when I go to a land casino...I go into a trance..money is no longer money.  All I want is those reels to hit winnnnn!!!!

You will figure a way to control it...if staying away is the only way..then do just that...whatever it takes !!